Too Many Tears

wrote for school

"I don't think we can be friends"
Your words echoed in my head
And a huge lump grew in my throat
The knot in my stomach was so tight, I thought it'd never come undone
I was shocked, so lost, I could only manage a breathless "What?"
When you got up to leave the room
I think I started to hyperventilate
I must have done something;
I could feel everyones' eyes staring
I saw you pause and turn back
For a brief moment, maybe even you thought you cared
But oddly, then
Yes, then of all moments
I wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stop causing me pain
I wanted to stop pretending to make you happy
I wanted nothing more than to stop pretending I was happy
And actually be happy
So I let you walk out the door
I let you go
Later you tired to rekindle a fire that was already dead
I tried to let you back in
But I couldn't, wouldn't let you walk back through the door
When you hadn't changed at all
I shed too many tears for you
I thought you were a part of my everything
But you were really nothing
And as heartless as this may sound
Though I don't mean for it to
I'm glad I let you go