"when it hurts so bad"

Every time I think I'm ready to face it and get it out, I can't fully get there. It's easier to forget because some pain is just to f***** DEEP!!

I tried to stay away from this as much as I could, I never wanted to breath again but I knew that I would. Every thought IT HURTS!, 

I'm lost and hurt.. my life was complete and had worth but since then I wish i'd  never put love first, 

NEVER tried to converse, 

never, EVER put myself through this s**t just to hurt, f**k love how I see it , i'm done with this game, all it ever brung to me was drama and pain, 

DRAMA AND PAIN, s**t ain't the same but s**t stays the same. The stain remains, try to stay sane I CAN'T!. 

I'm peeling like paint, just fading away wishing I could see better but it faded to plagues. 

the way that you touched me I thought it was official ,

thought you were that romeo thought  I wouldn't have to miss you, 

everything that I thought was a missile.. dismissed you even though I broke my own heart N**** I miss you!! 

Can't get no deeper than that cause I'll be bleeding in stacks, I'm feeding on tracks just trying to get my head put back don't want to feel this s**t no more I got my bed in a trap.

 I'm lead in a bat, the rapture got me headed in back.. them sedatives , Is what love  really is, got  me feeling really scared, WHATEVER, I mean whatever you did.. for real I'm a SOLDIER I'm better than this but still 

......smh

I just CAN'T.... STILL NOT READY TO FACE IT

Author's Note

Mind of muzik. (music) best describes who I am deep inside.. I went from writing everyday to writers block ever since my heartache and It hurts! i'm not there yet but I want to be.. But I'm afraid to look back again. I'm tired of facing shit to get past it.. I just want to forget but in doing that I lose a big part of me, my song was almost there, poetry, thoughts then BOOM, I crashed when it got to hard to feel

Reviews

[BLitZeD]

killed that one , real s**t

[silent poet]

Thanks BLitZeD.. Appreciate that..

[...]

I know you're hurtin, but if you can pull THIS kinda music out of it...it ain't for nothing. In time you will be writing a different kinda song...peace, dear poet

[silent poet]

That was truly sweet, thank you lynn!

[wordman]

well letshope you get over it soon,we`re not meant to be un loved

[silent poet]

There are some who say nothing. And then there's some rare ones' like you that say the kindest things' when they don't have too.. THANK YOU so very much Wordman. :) You are right!!

[wordman]

my pleasure