then he pulled me out of bedby the hair on my headhis spit mixing with my tearswould never ever be rudekeep stating your a "good dude"but hiding thing..
I don't like to admit itbut I've been alone foreverI've never had anyone be there, trulyI was always uncomfortable with someone knowing meall the blac..
I should be happyand gratefuland alivebut everyday I don't want to wake upI crumble and ache insidewhen will this endits been so longim starting to th..
I feel guilty I got betterI feel ashamed of my pastit feels like every thing was made upjust me going crazy in my headeverything seems so, so smalllik..
no one ever talks aboutthe pain of getting betterhow it feels to losewho you thought you wereyou were comfortable in the despairyou were content with ..
I've been strugglingmy whole lifedesperatelytrying to findthings that keep me goingkeep me aliveoh but Imjust slippingjust stumbling bycan't find peac..
Im trying so damn hardto changeto be differentim trying so damn hardto understandto listenbut no one cares to seethe changesim trying to make in meim ..
My Mothercan't you seethe evil facestaring back at meMy mothernever showed me howto be a womanwhat its all aboutMy MotherI love you the mostbut you hu..
She woke up with the sunwarming her bedshe got drunk the night beforethere was a pounding in her headwithout a doubtshe'd try to tune it outbut she kn..
She hasn't got farshe's got too many scarsto healshe throws her head backas she guzzles her flaskand dealsand she knows deep downit's realshe knows it..