blues and yellows

Blues and yellows

 

I listen to her breathing,

In and out,

Getting deeper by the moment

I try to close my mind

To keep myself away from those thoughts

Trying to ignore the feeling, it's hard

When the feeling never goes

I surround myself with friends

But it only makes it worse

 

When he’s holding her close

She can feel his pulse

And I can see it in the other’s eyes

She wants to be the one

And I gaze around the room

All eyes are looking,

Concentrating on something

Else but me

 

I sink back down, underneath my skin

The familiar place of red and greys

And the walls are closing in

Every time I let myself, come back down

Can anybody see me caving in?

 

A scenic picture of the deep sea

Dark and suffocating

You can nearly see me drowning

In the middle of it all

I try to tear myself out of the frame

Paint a new picture of a better me

With blues and yellows

But it all fades down to green

 

One step towards the finish line takes me back to the start

I tear myself apart with questions that don’t need answer

This feeling is too familiar

It like I’m back at home

The writings on the walls

And you’re ignoring my calls

 

 

I sink back down, underneath my skin

The familiar place of red and greys

And the walls are closing in

Every time I let myself, come back down

Can anybody see me caving in?

 

But I will crawl with the weight upon my shoulders

Tear away these chains that holding me

And when I sink back down, under my skin

I will be the one to dig myself back out

You won’t have to carry me

As I wave this brush and paint this smile

Blues and yellows fading into peace

 

 

  

Author's Note

i tried to put a upside at the ending, like fight the battle sorta thing, but i think it kinda made it lose something, will probably edit soon ...

Reviews

[Sashalee]

Great poem :)

[Middling]

This is a good poem, although i have no notion what the last satnza's about. But, overall very good. Wanting something that's someone else is always hard...

[Scarlet Pulse]

Great poem, I enjoyed it a lot. I think the ending line ".... into peace" can be changed. Maybe leave it at green. But of you wanted to an upside to it, maybe create a different color, a different image for the reader being curious at too what will happen. Run with the idea, and play around with it. Great start. I love the poem.