Losing It

a monologue

Tell me�"why am I here? Why have Icontinued to breathe, against all odds… I’ve survived. Survived what, you ask?A personal apocalypse, that’s what. My heart exploded, and then pieced itselfback together. This is impossible, you say. Impossible…. No, it’s a marvelousfeat of engineering I say. But you just shake your head and slowly walk away.And�"afraid to call you back, I sit alone. Tell me�"why me? So many have diedbefore their time, and yet I�"one who by all means wishes to simply end it�"I continue to walk this earth, ina body without an internal drive. My brain�"what has become of my brain you ask?Surely it is still functioning, still continuing its lamentable cause… and it is. I have yet to lose consciousness.Yet to sink into oblivion… Although it would surely be easier than you’d think.Just allow oneself to let go and fall into the black abyss… Maybe I will. Noone could stop me. Hell�"who would even care?! None… Save you. And even you havegiven up on me. Tell me�"why am I here? Why? I don’t understand it…. All I feellately is pain. And all pain is, is a corrupted form of love.

And I’m so very afraid of love…

Reviews

[solo2be]

Wow, very powerful piece.I love the emotion in this one. Great job

[Raymond]

I loved the last lines of this. A very interesting rant that makes me wonder...and wonder is interest. I am interested in why it is a "screenplay"?

[anne p. murray- LadeeAn..]

kk

[Matthew Smith]

Lol.