I Feel ColdA Poem by Shayla SayerI thrive in the extremes. I have yet to learn how to hold you near, But keep you away from my heart… So I simply do as I have taught myself. I’ve never been one of those girls Who throw tidbits of their soul At the ground by their feet In hopes of luring in a catch Worth working for. I thrive in the extremes. Do I give too much of myself, too soon? Or should I never give myself, at all? Maybe that is the problem, here… Nobody wants me in this state. He tells me I’m too “pure” But I know for a fact That it is my tainted soul That causes happiness to slip through my fingers Falling to the ground to nourish the next passerby. I listen to love songs That make others smile But right now they only make me sad. Shouldn’t the sound Of a perfectly executed guitar solo Make me nod along to the rhythm I can feel in my bones? My heart beat begins to slow As the music fades out. I thrive in the extremes. I wish you had held me tight Held me together As you said those words that tore me apart… But maybe it’s best that you didn’t. Maybe, somehow, this will turn out okay. My pillow whispers into the chasm From which my pain originates from And tells me that my tears will lead to healing If I allow my heart to mend… And I know it gets a little easier to pick myself back up each time Because scar tissue is harder to cut than skin And my heart is no longer recognizable Through the broken blood vessels And frayed edges. If I don’t learn my lesson this time I tell myself as I build my wall back up, Blood and bone held in place by an iron will, I’ll learn it eventually… And suddenly afraid of future pain I cloak myself in happiness And tell myself that the smile will become natural If I give my face time To mold to its curves. I thrive in the extremes. © 2011 Shayla Sayer |
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1 Review Added on August 16, 2011 Last Updated on August 16, 2011 AuthorShayla SayerFontana, CAAbouti love to write. i have been penning down my feelings since i was 13. in my own opinion, writing is sort of like love and wine--it only gets better with age. more..Writing
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