Suffocation

I fell asleep holding your hand

But awoke with no one there.

Afraid of the loneliness

That suddenly crashed down upon

My half-asleep head…

I close my eyes forcefully

Attempt to block out the sounds

Left by the absence of you.

The silence emanates from the air around the bed

Birds do not chirp within this cocoon of despair.

The window is closed, and latched

And the ceiling fan has been broken for a while.

No air circulates

The only movement comes from my breath

Rushing in and out,

Threatening to choke me and cause me to suffocate.

My chest does not rise or fall,

I am breathing so very fast that it remains motionless

Posed in the same position.

I need air

But I ignore this simple fact

Thinking it a confession of weakness

I am afraid to move my legs

For even though they are wrapped within the sheets

I feel so vulnerable

For the monsters beneath the bed

The monsters within my head

Are only quieted by your presence.

The silence is broken

As you enter the suffocating room

Dispelling all fears with your smile

And as I untangle myself from the sheets

And rush to meet you

I know that I will never speak of the overwhelming fear

That caused me to think

That you were gone forever.

You lay beside me

And hold my hand

And all is right once again.

 

Reviews

[masqued_muse]

"I close my eyes forcefully

Attempt to block out the sounds

Left by the absence of you."
The words that painted the portrait of fear of abandonment for me. Incredible...masqued^^

[joshua deathdealer]

Great write...I really enjoyed this. Well done.

[Silent Knight]

very nice! I like the imagery and the emotion. The feeling of a loved one being gone is strong and once they are back, the world seems right. Very good write.

[Raven Starhawk]

Truly remarkable words you have composed.

[Andrea Vargas]

You know shayla you do amaze me! i love your work

[The Analog Kid]

Sweet poem and tribute to a lover and friend:)

[Tasha]

Wow, this was so wonderful and poetic there is nothing left to say.
♥ Ta'Shandra