Shunning Perfection (Loving Myself)

My flaws don't make me perfect, they make me, ME. And that's who I want to be, no matter what.

Shunning Perfection (Loving Myself)

 

I grasp at straws

Trying to hold onto something that was never there

All the straws are short, for I cut them that way…

I never had a chance to win.

…I create my own downfall.

 

I hope for the worst.

That way I can be happy, maybe

When something good happens.

But somehow, it’s never good ENOUGH.

…I’m never truly satisfied.

 

I walk on and pretend the mask is real

Telling people the lies I speak of happiness

Are more than they seem, for they will become truth

After multiple repetition of their syllables.

…I lie to myself, feigning joy.

 

I say words that conceal my fear, my weakness

Sometimes cruel, I hide behind a wall

Impenetrable, and flawless, my wall protects me

But still I cower, afraid that someone will see through me.

…I fear myself, most of all.

 

I bare my heart, like a petty token

Allowing customers to inspect, admire, and criticize

They walk away, and I’m left with nothing

I clean up my wounds, alone.

…I never truly learn.

 

I still smile, through it all

And reach out to those who make me happy

Even if they don’t reach back, at least I got halfway

And the tightrope wire stops shaking if I sit still.

…I’m patient, and I never give up on love.

 

By: Shayla Sayer

 

Reviews

[Poetic Beauty]

I like this poem. We all have things inside us we don't like and put up barriers to keep ourselves safe, at different moments in our lives. Thanks you for sharing who you are.

[Legion]

A deep inside look at what ails most. It is so hard to be happy knowing the end result will be a let down eventually (be it through separation, loss, or death), but the fact is we must continue to try for it is our purpose in life to live and to love. It is what truly gives us purpose. Kudos on this.

[Chris]

One of the most "Real" writes I've seen ...here.

[Raven Starhawk]

Your words surely do invoke a whole other sort of understanding. This was penned well. I think that even between the lines, the lines even you do not write, are instances of magic that so few can perform. This was truly wonderful to read and consider.

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

Indeed, we all need to learn this, a well written piece.

[Daniel DeLorez]

Wonderful. :)