How Could I Be So Foolish

An apology to my wife after seperating

I hear my heart thumping inside of me,
The echo of everything we used to be.
Like a pen stuck on a forgotten word,
Reminding me just how much you hurt.

I can't stop hoping I'll see your face,
But again wake next to an empty space.
This is where you always used to be,
Your absence keeps on haunting me.
My darkness was once holding me down,
Like gravity not letting me off the ground.

I think of all the plans that we'd made,
Now I have never been so damn afraid.
You can't expect me to just let you go.
I just can't make it without you ya know.

I know I've behaved like an utter brat,
If I could take it all back I'd do just that.
What we had was like a good science,
Now I just can't take all of your silence.
I love you now and I always will,
You know Rachel, for you I'd kill.

I am so sorry for all that I have done,
That I hurt my daughters gorgeous mum.
I feel total remorce and complete regret,
That you ever felt that I could be a threat.