my story about love

About a person who has been really difficult for me to read.

You came into my life as my personal clown,
Such was your effect
That around you on my face there was never a frown.
Giggles and laughter of mine from miles one could hear,
To my heart you were just that near.

Then came the time when you were my confidante,
You knew all my secrets and lies,
How important you were to me you never did realise.
First a clown then a friend,
I couldnt even think how this would end.

As our friendship grew , so did my feelings,
It was all hearts and flowers
Around you my mind was reeling.
This attraction had snuck up on me,
Left me blindsided because you already had your one and only.

I kept thinking was it just me?
Who thought we were meant to be?
Could we ignore that kind of chemistry?
Because once a while i would catch your eye fleetingly,
And it would tell me the story of your soul.

And i was right in thinking that you did feel for me,
But it was not as strong as it should have been.
Because had it been strong enough,
You would have left her for me,
I guess your coward of a heart never could decide.

From clown to friend to crush to lover ,
You didnt leave much ground to cover.
But now you're just a virtual stranger,
Somebody that i used to know so well,
Now i associate with danger.
Because thats what you are - a danger to my heart,
To my mind and soul.
Which new mask would you now don upon yourself?
After you're done with me ,
I'm afraid i wouldnt even recognise myself.