Gone

Sigh

It's a warm summer
I can feel the fast paced time pass me by
It's amazing how brightly the sun has shun here
My thoughts have once again drifted into that depressing place
And all I can think about is once again doing those bad things
I try to convince my self I'm not the person I once was
But what if that was just fashioned by the regret
What if I haven't changed a bit

Where Is the answer to all my questions
I have abandoned my faith
Because the thing you call god just seemed like dead weight
I've always felt lost
But now more than ever
I don't know why my mind always finds ways to push the good out for the bad
I asked my cat what he thinks
He said the reason i do these things is because For almost all my life I've felt lonely
It's become a habit to just grab onto that little sparkle of light
Before it vanishes before my eyes
And even the memory of them slowly fade away

I've been dwelling in the sorrow
For longer than I can remember
And every glimpse of hope is only temporary
My knight in shining armor
Couldn't beat the trials in my labyrinth of a brain
So now I need another dose of that warm calming medicine
Just to help convince myself it's worth it to stay
Even if all I'm doing is wishing for better days
I know one of these days I'll get myself out of dark place
Without the help of some wanna be prince
With promises of false love
I refuse to be but another frail maiden in the tower
I'll escape the darkness of my mind and once again see the light