The Thoughts That Crawl And Climb

Sitting on a bench till dark

I sit on the bench and close my eyes,
The path is quiet, not a soul in sight,
Finally I can look skyward and sigh,
Let loose the beast long by my side.

I let go my shadow, that stain that crawls and climbs,
Dutifully in my wake, biding it's time,
Till it can stretch past and become large,
And streak,
Up walls and streets, explore past its confines.

I sit stock still, and let the clocks chime by,
Drawing hours deep from my pockets,
I let them go, lint on a breeze,
Watch them fly.

It grows stronger, free it screams.
Screams of its slow progress on the pavement in front my feet.
I have not moved and yet it has ventured far and dreamt dreams,
Of Night, and joining it's embrace, to escape the light, and sleep.

My shadow is tired of keeping up with me, as I am with it.
We were once not one yet I trail this weary darkness,
This cape of charcoal, remnant of embers bright and hot,
Now cold and devoid of light, happy it is not.

I am tired of pretending it will go away if I stand in the sun,
Because too soon the moon chases and day must run.
Leaving me to grasp blindly, for memories of fun, and happy rhymes,
Of moments spent with friends, of all the good times.

These thoughts dark have claws and teeth,
To climb and crawl and sink deep,
But I am fighting. I let the shadow roam free.
Beneath the blanket black with spotlights all searching for me

Reviews

[C. Lee Battaglia]

"I am tired of pretending it will go away if I stand in the sun,
Because too soon the moon chases and day must run.
Leaving me to grasp blindly, for memories of fun, and happy rhymes,
Of moments spent with friends, of all the good times."

I struggle with anxiety and depression and it sucks. It's something I'll have to deal with my whole life. But where my source of joy comes from is writing. It helps me understand who I am and what I go through. These words are very real feelings that are very common in todays world. You are an extremely talented writer/author and I just want to let you know that, whenever you are going through something difficult or it just seems to much, just write! It will help you and others around you.
Your writing is incredible and keep up the incredible work!
If you want to, could you read my story, "the blonde girl," you don't have to if you don't want to, I just felt like I should share it with you.

Your friend,

C. Lee Battaglia

[UnderTheDeadPoetTree]

Thank you so much for your support and kind words! It's always such a joy to hear from another person that gets such wonder and help from simply putting thoughts and feelings on paper. I've said it before and written about it but the simple act of writing and allowing yourself to strip away any self placed pretense about your feelings really helps to deal with issues that you'd normally have to talk to someone else about.

I will of course check out your writing! Thank you for reaching out:)

-David

[C. Lee Battaglia]

You are more then welcome! And It is a big help by letting other people what we go through as humans. Once we realize that there are people out there who have the same problems, or similar, it brings us more joy, and sympathy for those around us. You are very talented and keep up the great work!