Every StepA Poem by hiddenbehindglassMy sad side of the day i really hope that no one reads thisEvery step takes me in a different direction So many ways that I could of chosen At the time each step justified in my head Sometime later I regret the choice I made Still I find some way to justify my action Although I wonder who I could have been I can’t think that way It will never change Even though somewhere far away There is me living that life Me but not me This is who I am and I can’t No I don’t want to change that There is more to me than shape and curves Blond and brown strands of wavy hair I have scars with stories Stories without scars Maybe I’m waiting for that person to ask about both Maybe I’m too scared to know what they think The words written on paper are so real Memories and stories come to life Everything I wish to forget Everything I want to remember Things that I’m still confused on why or what happened What am I doing now I feel that I have nowhere to run Nothing to do The pain inside of me is growing bigger The burden of being a horrible friend drags me down I can’t stand to look at myself, knowing that I’m letting my best friend down day after day How can I fix the mess I made I’m sitting here confused So here I am pouring useless words onto paper Hoping maybe to find some relief An outlet from the real world Now I have one last question Does he see past my smiles Or does all he want is what is on the surface and the smile is good enough Because when I say no he just dies of boredom He has been through so much but can’t he see Those actions they still hurt me Maybe all I am to him is a pretty face a fun girl for senior year I was silly to think any more of it In a few month he will be gone to happy land With his family he loves so much Now I know that I am stronger than ever before But these steps I take are faltering My feet weaken under the weight I bare I can’t bring myself to burden another soul For I am just a selfish person who has nothing to be sad about But yet I am © 2013 hiddenbehindglassAuthor's Note
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Added on January 23, 2013 Last Updated on January 23, 2013 Tags: sad, first poem, confused, rant |