Last text

My last text to you for a long time ...

There are days that I don't know what to do with myself
All I do is think about you and the time that we have spent together
My days are filled with thoughts about you
Do you ever think about me?
Yet still, I don't know what you really feel for me ...
I have asked you again and again
still you never answer

I don't know what to think some days
All I want is to be with you maybe not every day or every min
But to at least know what you really want from me
I have shown you and told you how I feel
But there is nothing in return
You say that actions speak louder than words ...
So far your actions tell me that your not into me
Not the way I am into you

We started out with one idea and
now my feelings have flourished for you
How can I make it clear to you that
I want an answer... I want to know where we are going from here

Do you love me back?
Am I only someone to be with when it is convenient for you?
Or am I that girl that has fallen so hard for someone
Who doesn't know that she is being fooled and he doesn't really
Want her anymore... but doesn't know how to tell her ...

Four months I have stayed up late waiting for your text
Is he coming ? Am I some joke to him? Am I that annoying girl to him ?
Am I adding on to his stress?

You probably still won't answer after you read this
But know this
I feel as though Im going crazy and I don't know what to do anymore
I never intended for this to happen and I need to know that you aren't into me
And that I'm only a f**k buddy nothing more ...
Maybe then I can let go of this feeling that there might be something more ....