Birthday Gift

For my favorite Marine. Because he was there :)

 

Happy birthday huh?

Nothing went as planned

Except for you and I, which was odd

Because you didn’t have to come,

But you did.

The perfect birthday gift, a kiss.

When your lips and mine meet

Like for the very first time

In a lifetime.

And the few hours we had were spent well,

Except for the part where control was around,

But that’s allright, your birthday will come

In a heartbeat.

I shared my dreams of moving away,

Maybe someday you can come with me

For I do not think I can do it alone

Anymore.

We sat on the grass in the park for a while,

My calming down took longer,

Thanks dad! But you understood

And you didn’t have to.

You asked for a reminder for a certain slap,

And my answer gave you the reason I cried,

You were silent and still,

But you understood all I am.

We went to our place,

To find god’s true home,

But what is the point when the god I know

Is right by my side?

No thoughts of my past, just you and me,

And for the first time that day all felt right

And I felt safe and calm with you, which was odd,

Because you didn’t have to  come.

You sped away when all I wanted was to escape,

Made your arrival 20 minutes earlier

From the shower, barely dry

When you could have said no.

Letters in words and words in letters,

Poems for Uncle Sam’s children

But they seem to be for you,

And I’m not sure why, yet.

No getting attached but my decision was made,

A smile on my face and you believed my prayer.

All will be well, you’ll always have me,

It’s not much but it’s all I can give.

We don’t have to try, the impressing was silly,

You’ve known me as friends for as long as I know,

Through the good and the bad and the bloody,

You’ve stuck by my side through the broken glass.

A well deserved escape, my dearest

No texting, but that’s all okay, I assume,

For somehow I know what you’re up to,

And you know I’m safe, so I hope.

The best of my birthday was our time,

When nothing was close that can harm,

Which would have been fine, you were there

When you didn’t have to.

The ride home so silent and cold,

I worried to see if you’re fine,

The drinks you had when you got home

Seemed to scare the life out of me.

I promised that all will be well,

And I decided to hold that promise,

Silly boy, put the bottle down

For you have me, you never had nothing.

Soon I will drive, I’ll be far away,

I can come and we can hang out sometime,

Provide some joy and some fun

Not just for me, but for you too.

The perfect birthday gift,

A kiss from your lips,

A tight hug in which all was bliss,

And I could feel the pain lift away.

I think thank you was in order,

And the goodnight kiss was odd…

I wonder what happened to make it so cold,

But it’s fine, you were sad and I think I know why.

One more year in which all is painful,

Maybe a few months and then we can smile,

Just you and I.

You talked about marriage and something more,

About the third time now, but I don’t understand

Why now when you’re so terribly young,

And I’m younger.

I promised to make you happy and I try,

I will continue to do so until told otherwise,

But I have to admit, my dear boy

Your joy is my joy too.

Thank you for saving an otherwise doomed day,

And my body aches for you already

Crying softly, my mind begging loudly,

To tell you my bed awaits too.

I thought joy would be something impossible,

For recent events left me broken,

But with you, all is allright,

You make me so terribly happy.

Thank you my dear for the joy you have brought.

So much contained in a few hours,

Yet, no commitment, and I think I know why…

But I am grateful for you, you’re my only one and I think we’re getting attached. But so what?

Author's Note

:)