My Childish Heart

Basically, this started as me playing around with the form of A,B,A,B,C, with ten syllables to each line. Any comments/criticisms are welcome and encouraged :)

My words come out awkwardly; I recall

A time when they were smooth and I could dance

Among the shadows of my mind. Then, all

I could do was think of you and the chance

I thought you gave; my naive delusion.

 

I pretended you looked at me with love;

Promised me all I could dream of. Back then

My fantasies were of your romance, of

Your unspoken words; never fretting when

Or if they would ever be said aloud.

 

But then you fell for a beauty; a girl

I should never have believed could be me.

I wished for your love, and built my whole world

Around you. I was too foolish to see

That you never wanted me as your bride.

 

I fell down and wept. If not yours, whose could

I ever stand to be? Your friendship you

Offered, but I wanted your love. I should

Have been my own destruction: it was through

My stupidity I broke my own heart.

 

My sorrows were my fault, and I know your

Actions were pure: you were honest. I blame

My madness, my yearning for something more

From you that was my downfall. To maim

My heart is something you are not capable of.

 

But now I am grown up. I need no man

To hold me firm. Now, I dance to cold songs

Of reality, not lies. Now, I am

Not blind. But now, I know, though it was wrong,

Pretend love was better than none at all.