Pride

I was everything to me
I meant so much to me
I thought I was creating
My very own destiny
Then I lost control
Everything came crumbling down
I had no idea that I was living
Such a crazy damn lie
I bent over my sobbing tears
Collapsed on that floor
With an aching that was no longer
Possible to ignore
Possible to ignore
I expected your judgement to hurt me
But it's healing me
Saving me from the lie of my own pride
Dependence was a curse upon my life
I tried so hard to outrun it
I guess I was relying on the wrong things
The entire time
The entire time
The entire time
I didn't want you to save my life
I wanted to die
I prayed to you God
Please God,
Don't make me live through this
I'm dying on the inside
Dying on the inside
Please, God, take my life
Don't make me live
To watch the world around me
Fall apart
You never tried to stop me
From crying until I couldn't cry anymore
I felt your heart suffering with mine
I felt you feel me,
Dying on the inside
You sent your Angels to my side
My life started new
When your love saved my life
From the inside

Reviews

[light and ashes]

Hey, you seem really awesome. I really like what you have to say.

[StormeLight]

Thank you very much! I'm glad my poetry speaks to you =)

[light and ashes]

You're very welcome :)

[no tell writer]

Never give up, God is on your side. He may not answer in our time, he answers in is time.
This is wonderful, enjoyed

[StormeLight]

awh thank you so much =) You are absolutely right, it took me so long to understand that God has his reasons and that someday I always end up understanding them. Looking back I can even see why certain times, necessitated silence. I doubted his love, for so long, I have been truly humbled lately to understand that it was never because he didn't love me, only because he loved me too much to do the wrong thing at the wrong time in my life

[no tell writer]

I think all of mess up, it's what makes us human, and God, God.. We have his mercy and grace on our side.

[StormeLight]

So true, I don't know what I would do without that kind of love in my life. I really don't know. Living without God was horrible.

[no tell writer]

I was once an atheist, but a bad horrible dream woke me up. Now I am glad to have such a remarkable God in my life. I am glad you have found such a wonderful love in God.

[StormeLight]

Is not the power of dreams so frighteningly incredible?? I am glad for us both =) Thank you for this conversation, its the highlight of my day today =)