Everyday Regret.

The regret I carry in my heart.

I've always thought of myself as a strong person, with a strong heart. After 4 Years of being apart, I realize now that maybe I made the wrong choice. I loved him so dearly. We were high school sweethearts whom starting dating at a young age. Maybe we were just to young and dumb? Maybe we didn't know what we REALLY wanted in life, even though we knew we wanted each other. Back then my world revolved around him. I changed so much about my life just to be his girl. Every year things got worse. We argued. We fought. We said things we regret. One summer as I sat in tears, I decided that maybe we weren't perfect for each other anymore. Maybe, just maybe we needed to go our separate ways. I made the decision to end the relationship. We both ended up in tears but agreed that maybe it was best. We have remained friends all this time and talk on a pretty regular basis. For some reason, all of a sudden I have this deep regret in my heart. I still love him like no other. Even in another relationship I compare everything to him. Now it makes me wonder; does he still love me? We talk all the time but I'm terrified to ask him. But I cant help but think, now that we have grown and figured out what we want in life, maybe it would work between us. I'm starting to think ill never know....