Hurt Me

Color me broken or black

Steal my smiles

And stab me in the back

Do something wrong to me

I need someone to blame my sadness on

Why won’t you be mean to me?

Yes, I’m too cowardly to look inside me

Or face my terrors and madness

Every time my tears threaten to fall,

I plead, ‘Not yet. A little longer’

They knock on my eyes again

Gently whispering, ‘It’s time’

But again, I plead, ‘Not yet. A little longer’

I’m not ready to be weak

Or admit I need help

Can I delay this madness a little longer?

My mind is falling under this weight

My eyes are blurring from the reservoir of salty tears

that I have refused to let go

I’m scared of me, but not you

So, if you love me enough,

Hurt me

Give me a reason to let my emotions flow

Without terrifying myself

Or submitting to my depressive whims

Help me

Hurt me.

Author's Note

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