I hate you.

two mild heart breaks within a year

I hate you.

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you.

You are the unreliable narrator of my story, and I will have nothing to do with you.

You are the dying ink to my perfect pen, and I will not stand by and let you ruin me.

I hate you for your voice, I hate you for your charm. I hate you for that choice ‘cuz you left me all this harm. I hate you for all the stress you’ve caused and I hate you for your personality. I hate you, yes, you. I really do,

I hate you,

but…

I find myself staring a little too long

when I scroll through my photos and see an occasional picture of you.

I see you in my reels and think “hey, you’d totally do that.”

And yet and yet and yet

I still don’t have a clue

As to why you’d leave me hanging, leave me strangling with my thoughts.

And yes, I’ve seen your worst qualities, but they’re in a field of forget me nots.

And I hate you, I really do. The things you do infuriate me like hell.

But still but still but still

Somehow,

Even though I know you don’t mean well,

Even though I know you are not true,

Even though it was you who first fell,

Even though I know you are a taboo,

My heart still hopes that someday we can

turn it

into

“I love you”.

My friends say you’re not going to treat me right and believe me, I do know,

Because what you’re doing right now SUCKS and yet I can’t let go.

She said don’t get too attached, and I promised her I’d be fine.

But now I think you’ve made my heart

completely

cross the line.

(I’m helpless. I’m hopeless. I hate you.)

Author's Note

written: May 2025