But I had too

Just had a few things running through my head please comment for any tips or advice I hope you guys enjoy it :)

I know I’m the reason for his pain,

I know I’m the reason he may never believe in love,

I know I’m the reason he will never be able to trust.

But at the moment I didn't know what else to do,

I had no one to help me.

So I let him go.

I had to let go of every feeling I had for him.

I just had too.

It might of hurt and crushed him,

But it also crushed me so badly,

Having to ignore and push him away

I don’t know why I did it.

But I had too.

Its been 5 months,

He’s doing fine,

Or so I hope he is.

I know his feelings still stay

and I still manage to blame myself for letting him fall.

I blame my curiosity,

I blame myself for wanting to know him,

I blame my mind for putting ideas in my head,

I blame my heart, for making me feel any emotion for him.

and I blame myself for opening up to him.

I have flashbacks,

flashbacks to the time we first met,

the times you made me laugh,

the times where I couldn't do anything but smile,

the times where we would be up at 2AM talking about anything,

the time where you held my hand

And never let go..

Looks like I’m the one that let go,

the one that threw away her feelings,

because she was afraid,

I let go of my happiness,

and you…

But I had too,

So many things got in between us

I couldn't handle it.

So I let go of everything..

For weeks I couldn't look you in the eyes,

Because I was afraid to see the pain in your eyes.

And to know I’m the reason why.

One day I just hope you’ll forgive me and understand why..

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Pain and hurt. Part of life and living.
"For weeks I couldn't look you in the eyes,
Because I was afraid to see the pain in your eyes.
And to know I’m the reason why.
One day I just hope you’ll forgive me and understand why.."
Regret is a heavy burden to carry. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[Jerome F Knox III pseud..]

I love this because I have lived this quite a few times....sometimes letting is all we know...