he looked at me like no other

 

my daddy used to look at me
in ways no dad looks at his kid
i wasnt the boy he wanted
he couldnt love me the way i needed
he never showed me he cared
i realize i never had a father
that god sent me a mother but no father
where daddys love was suposed to be
was a hole so big
where was o to go when i had noone to protect me
daddy never loved me the way i needed
but as the year past it gets harder to go on
afriad that my kids will go throught the same
my mom always held her hand out
but i needed my daddy to love me like no other
theres a hole where daddy is suposed to be
i see the memories of daddy and mommy so happy
did i destroy there love
people who know me dont know that my journey
begin with being sick and growing up with no daddy
sometimes i see my daddy in my dreams i want him there
my mom met a man who i thought so dearly of
but that love never last
i guess i will grow up not knowing what if feels
like to have a dad around
sometimes in my sleep i wonder why of all people
i lost a dad who i needed
its hard to understand but life goes on
theres is a hole where daddys love is suposed to be