Now

I have this friend who understands me.
He understands me because he has survived me.
We fucked and he fell in love and he saw what a mess I was and stayed.
Stayed loving me.
Time after time when I pushed him away, he stayed.

Now, he is my reminder.
I message him "now" whenever I need reminded that you dont love me.
He tells me that you couldn't possibly want me, love me, or even care for me and have abandoned me the way you did.
Now.
The irony is not lost on either of us. I am him and you are me when I was continuously devastating him.
Yet he stays.
Now.

Reviews

[Franky]

Yep. Lots of irony in this life. Maybe time to let go of that? Sounds like a bad spiral.

[Kimberley]

Thank you, love. Navigating my way through it slowly but surely. Bizarre to be my age and experiencing my first heartbreak. I have no idea what I'm doing. Sadly, it's been a year so I might not be a very quick learner.

[Franky]

I'm so sorry. That isso hard I know. His loss though no doubt!