first timer's anxiety

first timer's anxiety

A Story by thelauraslate

We are exhausted, sitting outside your apartment on two five gallon drums of latex you use for special effects. Smoking a cigarette, smirking,  we exchange thoughtful glances and do not say a word.

Do I? Do you? Are we? Have you ever felt like this before? What do we do next? What does all this mean?
How do I tell you? What will you think? Why are we so scared? Are you sincere? Am I? Does everyone know except for  me? How long will this last? Will you give up? Will I? Are you ready? Will you say yes? Will that be enough to make this feel real? How did i go so long without this? Why didn't you tell me? Can we agree to enjoy this without fear?

I exhale, slightly light headed, you make me forget to breathe sometimes. I am looking at my hands, as if they are brand new and I never worn them before. I ask you if I can have a glass of water. You open the front door, sending a rush of cool air outside, giving me goosebumps. You stand in the doorway looking at me through your eyelashes. You grab my hand, look directly in my eyes, take a deep breath, kiss my forehead, then slide your cheek against mine. You say, "I love you. Please stop worrying"

She loves me. She loves me. She loves me.

© 2012 thelauraslate


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This is elegant and exquisite in its innocence. Young innocent love is, truly, the greatest thing in the world--at least according to my belief.

Posted 11 Years Ago


amazing, and beautiful, I loved it :) and I loved how you ended it with the repetition of that one thought :)

Posted 11 Years Ago


This is amazing! I kind of just worry from the typical love scenes in life, good job. I really like this!

Posted 11 Years Ago


You had me all worried on the lyrical I's behalf, so I smiled just a tad bit at the closing line. Thanks for this. (:

Posted 12 Years Ago


Delightful! She read your mind. This story made me smile.

Posted 12 Years Ago


amazing

Posted 12 Years Ago



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Added on June 22, 2012
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