See Wall, Meet Head

An introvert living in, an extrovert world.

Why do I like

I'm talking

To a brick wall

When I say

"No"?

Realize

You're trying to help

With your suggestions

For getting involved

With others.

But

I know

How my body

And mental make-up

Will react.

To outside stimuli

Like those

You propose.

While

You think

You're helping me.

In reality

The opposite

Is true.

On my physical

And mental levels.

Like tossing me

Out of a plane

Without a parachute

To break my fall.

Believing

I'll walk away

Uninjured.

Not willing

To risk everything

On the faint hope

You're right.

When you don't understand

How it feels

To be

An introvert.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/11/07/physical-behavior-of-introverts_n_6069438.html

Author's Note

Originally written, December 20, 2014.

Captcha: soulless

Reviews

[ANTO]

Love is giving someone the power to destroy you - then trusting them not to.
I thought that was a nice quote to share.
Meet head = meat head = no listen - got it.
People see introverts as more than people they are a challenge I feel for their talents and skills (especially social) and thats why they dont seem to listen. Eventually the penny will drop - they will stop - and probably walk away - forever. The Introvert has to (if they value that friendship) come to the table with some concessions too. Like any arrangement/partnership/relationship its all about give and take Therisa - thats what I took from this
Thanks for sharing :))
captcha is quirky

[therisa]

Actually, Anto, it was more; see wall meet head. as banging my head, against the wall. But your interpretation works too. :) I understand, but I am talking how the mental health system seems geared towards, an extrovert personality, ignoring this approach doesn't work for almost half of the world. As for my friends, I place their health needs, ahead of my own. And, they're aware of my own needs, when it concerns mental health issues.

[ANTO]

Oh I get it - banging your head aginst a brick wall - right the literal -
its easy to ignore or brow-beat the introvert - making them feel like timewasters so thats what I found happens. My friend an extrovert goes to the doctors and demands what he needs - and gets it - I remember one time saying to the exact same doctor that I had seen a treatment of the Internet that I might like to try - and he just guffawed so i left his practice.

But theres the rub too - often prioritising friends over your self (thats a natural attitude to you that you probably will always have even if its to your own detriment such is the givers heart)

[therisa]

Sadly, Anto, too many doctors think, they know, what is best for us. I had to fight, to get myself, into cognitive behaviour therapy program, provided by a local hospital. Or, are transphobic, even though, they're gay/lesbian, themselves.

As for my friends, they're willing to spend money on, a round trip cab ride, if I phone them, saying, I need help. It works both ways. Besides, I would never abuse our relationship, as making friends, is very hard for me.

[ANTO]

I did CBT - it sucked for me. I picked up a few techniques but nothing to write home about - about a years therapy - very disappointed in that as I had regarded it as my panacea after reading so much about it. Dont get me wrong talking therapies is grand but you need to have everything at your disposal at the same time - holisitic therapy is the only way to go IMHO.

One friend who will do what you described is worth a million facebook friends - never forget that Therisa .

[therisa]

I agree with the holistic approach, to healing. When I'm able, to go twice a week, to an art therapy program, where everyone is treated, as an artist, first and mental health survivor, second. As for Facebook, I don't have an account, as I value my privacy, too much, to let them, decide it, for me. So it's either, real or nothing.

[ANTO]

Thats sounds ace - never had art therapy but did a lot of drawing as a kid and I must have liked doing that - perhaps I escaped into the picture - i was a lonely kid - looking back - despite having a large family.
Dont like FB at all - that smalltalk is so fake - who wants to see a picture of somones microwave meal and glass of beer ffs lol - I cant stand fakers -

[therisa]

Have been told, by the clay ceramic instructor, I have raw talent that just needs, the focus to release it. Am doing projects that skill artists would balk at. Sadly, haven't been to the studio, since June 9, when I had an anxiety attack, which triggered my agoraphobia.

[ANTO]

Its frustrating when experts laud you like that too though - I know they mean well but they dont usually take everything into account, but the creative juices will out ! it just depends what medium you feel at one with I suppose. Im dreadfully sorry about the panic attack - got them regular until I went on a heart med now I sail blissfully through them - its been a life changer

[therisa]

He's very supportive, of everybody, at the studio. He let us, progress at our own pace, only stopping us, if he believes that the project we have chosen, is too much, for our ability. Ugh, not more meds, am already on, too many of them, as is, for my daily cocktail of pills.

[ANTO]

Yeah more meds Therisa I would never take any up until about 10 years ago -- I wouldnt even take a pain killer !! but these are betablockers and they stop my heart from going crazy during a panic attack which allows me to gather myself and go through it instead of running from it

[therisa]

I have to take meds for my diabetes and my transitioning. If I had it, my way, I wouldn't take a single pill. Either the meds or death, here.