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A letter from once upon a time...

Baby, what am I to do with this over flowing love I have for you. I fought it for as long as I could, with all that I had but to no avail. I find myself wrapped up, tied up, and tangled up in you. I pray that my love and concern for you doesn’t make God jealous. I mean, He brought us together but deeper and deeper I go into this uncontrollable need and want of you. I wished for forever with you today as I drove home from work. I said it out loud before I even realized what I was saying. I cry over our love. Tears just well, fall, and flow. I don’t know why? Maybe it is because it is over whelming. How can you find your piece of Heaven and not be moved to tears? To see your own personal gift from God breathe and sleep comfortably next to you. How can you not be moved to tears when you feel your love reach out for you as he sleeps and kiss your forehead as he snores? It is so beautiful because that means I dwell in you where you dwell in me. In the place where loving you is like breathing and natural. How can you live with out breathing? You can’t and that is what loving you is like. It has become the second form of breathing in my life. My heart has become the lungs that take you in and spread you evenly through out my being. You ask me why do I love you and even I can’t quite capture it all in words. My mind knows that the letters of the alphabet can’t capture you. I mean you can arrange them any way you want to and still it wouldn’t capture what I have found in you. My spirit believes it’s home rests in you. My heart knows that you are good for me. Heaven must have fouled up some how cause surely I couldn’t have done anything worthy of this. This forever high I am trapped in... I mean my steps are so light I think gravity is becoming a thing of the past. I feel so many things at once and my heart opens up to make more room for you. You have a sacred place in me. I want to share every waking minute with you and I know that is unrealistic but there is no cessation of you and I, because you live in me. Nothing changes that my heart calls out to yours always. Today’s brightest moments are when your face flashed across my mind. I think of your kiss and I taste it as if you just pulled your lips from mines. I catch chills. I want to be cautious but I can’t seem to stop myself from wanting to make your world better. Each day we grow and I realize more and more what love means. My smile is so stuck on you. It seems to like everything about you. Being angry with you is such a waste because it doesn’t matter. My smile  rises  still and we have this battle going on where I try to hold it in and it demands to be present even in my fits of anger. You know even when you get on my nerves the most I find my heart opening up to you. I want to love every fear from your mind, heal every open wound in your heart, and seal it with my devotion so that you will never be broken there again. I want to carry your visions in the womb of me until it is time for us to give birth to your dreams. Yeah, it is the love talking again. I love you and I am in love with you and still that doesn’t say enough. So I will hush and do my best to let my actions convince you because words elude me...