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About a man who knew at a early age he wanted kids but could never have 1

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Not cry but it does make me when I think about it to hard by myself
22 years wondering what's wrong with me
Asking what if
And questioning why not
Publicly joking it off
Let no big deal
But I can't no more
That s**t killed a part of me
And to never get another chance
Is like poison slowly being injected daily
Yes everyday since 85
I thought , think and tear up about it
It's worse then my mother dying
More pain then when my brother passed
They left way to soon
But to go you had to come and I never had one to be delivered
Alive
And to see the man who touched me
Have 4 , 3 that's his by birth
Makes me crazy
Tell me Christians
This part of gods plan
No answer having b*****d
I'm more then worthy
Proved way beyond I was ready
But reality is
At 40 I stand here knowing it will never happen
My story is no worse then the next
Road no harder to travel
It's selfish
But how much can I give
Without expecting something
Yes knowing I'm looked at in the same light as one helps
But since a kid I thought about growing up to look down and hear
I love you dad

Author's Note

Would like honest feedback from all. Thank you

Reviews

[Karmee]

Wow! I can feel emotional words here. Nicely written and presented

[T Snider]

Thank you.

[Karmee]

no problem