when skies fall/so tired

daily life is a b***h

the brilliants of my illness out shines my intellect.

i wanted to go out and sit under clouds and watch birds go by, but i cannot move.

i have never been so tried and energetic, my brain does not know pause, but my body is lifeless.

i wanna smell mountain air and walk in the trees, but a simpler task would be to move mountains.

each step i take is different, but each thought is the same, i will not make it like this.

all i want is piece/peace of mind/mine, but no peace is coming for me and none is sort.

i wanna sit under a tree and watch days go by, but i cannot move.

i need help to silence these inaudible screams and rest for a while, i just wanna rest for a while.

my days are labored and i know numbered, i can’t feel my heart anymore.

i just wanna sit in the rain and count raindrops, i wanna feel my wet skin as it dries in mountain air. i wanna touch the sky and not have it fall on me.

my time spent in unfriendly company has left me no tomorrow and tonight is to long, i have been used up and no one checks up on me.

i can hear my clock counting down, but i won’t be ready when it stops.

i just wanna sit on the steps of my life and watch the cars go by.

i wanna be seen by people who are not like me, finally be seen. being alone is to much work and i have never been so tired.

this has become to much for me, oh god am i tired and how long is long enough, oh god am i tired.

Reviews

[Corset]

I felt exhausted just reading this, the heavy emotions and loneliness are screaming give me peace but not emptiness, give me strength but let me rest a bit, the words are so weary, it's a plea. August was a tough month on me too, hope you are feeling better now.

[hunglikejesus]

I got tried reading it again. I was in a bad spot when I wrote this and that has passed. I wanna thank you for reading this, I had truly forgotten about this and now I need a nap.