Unrequited

This is quite a long one.

I remember days of gold.

When the moon was full

and days grew longer.

Passions awakened, while sorrows...

were forsaken.

A kiss on the lips

a gleam in your eye.

And like that. A flutter. A shot straight to my heart.

From one of cupids spy's.

and an arrow did he shoot.

Life was carefree, I was much thinner...

when beauty blossomed and age...did not matter.

A cliché but true, none the less:

I loved you from the moment I first saw you.

And will, until I die.

I think of you and sigh.

How did we let the good times roll by?

You were the one I wanted to give

the special gift that won't return thereafter.

I wanted you completely, mine, forever after.

Then the days grew colder. Blacker. Darker.

Two years we'd been. Then my heart you broke.

And soon after, I threw my gift away, to some

'half-hearted Arthur'. And left.

Thrown and discarded,

like a broken old toy.

Then began the self-hated torture.

A liar, a thief of hearts, another heart breaker.

He too said that he loved me! But when push came to shove...

he left me alone. On a cold, damp, step.

Heavily laden.

I chose to move on. With a head held high.

I welcomed the full force alone.

They judged me, they doubted me.

They laughed and they cursed me.

But this bundle of mine, a joy did it bring

and melted the ice from deep within my thick skin.

Yet time and again, I still deserved pain,

for what had driven my love apart.

Yet a glimmer of hope,

a prince who's love me gave.

He took on us both, and loved as if his own.

A love there did grow.

Yet my heart was still torn and shattered.

Like nothing truly mattered.

My heart belonged to one other.

Who truly loved another.

Attempting to 'make it work'

but doubt, there did lurk.

And the day soon came

when it was time for me to say

“It's over”.

A heart I too did break.

And all for the sake

of a hopeful lovers mistake.

A yearning heart of old,

still belonging to you tenfold.

Wanting you to wrap me up,

and bring me in,

keep me safe from life's bitter colds.

But you did not come to my aid.

Or lay beside the bed I'd made.

All I wish is, that you stayed.

Beside me through life's hardships.

After my prince had gone away

a future lover came to stay.

The one who broke my heart before

and shook me right to my inner core.

The man I wasted love upon,

and gave my precious gift thereon.

He came again, and asked once more,

for a chance to prove his love again.

I encouraged his foolish notions,

as if drunken a lovers potion.

All seemed sweet, right and good.

But in the doorway, you still stood.

I turned a blind eye from you this time.

And listen to the corny lines.

But soon things turned, once again more sour.

This time just before the hour.

His words would scar and actions bruise

and yet I was in fear to loose

the one who stood and caused me pain.

As days went on, and seasons changed,

I found myself in that place again.

On the step. Lightly laden.

My choice this time.

So there, I'm this maiden,

who is repeatedly forsaken,

condemned to a life that's destitute and bleak.

But no, I am not weak.

It's only a man that which I seek!

Still as time grew greater,

and new life came into view,

he returned appearing changed.

A man? A gent? A saint?

No.

Changed he had,

but not as first appeared.

The words were more painful,

the bruises more fatal,

the house more totalled.

A time did come, when those days came to an end.

And his abuse he would not send.

But who knew that loneliness was around the bend.

And you were there, my heart in your arms.

Where it has always been seen,

yet never heard.

But still yours is not mine.

You withhold it from me!

You hint, you laugh, you show me you truly care.

My words mean much to you, 'tis what you say!

And now so suddenly, your with another.

Not me.

Many words I care to share,

but alas, I do not dare.

And just sit on the floor. And stare.

Trying so hard not to care.

Hopeless.

Oh isn't it funny, how those sunny days of gold, soon turned grey and cold .

And my life became a thing of prey.

But all I wanted was for you to just, simply.

Stay.

Be mine.

Let our hearts entwine.

For me to be thine, forever thine.

Simply. Yours. Always.

By underwriter     29/12/2010

Author's Note

Im a little unsure about this one, not sure if i like it or not, let me know what you think. Please be honest (but not harsh) :) thank you.

Reviews

[FleetingReveries]

The endindg, "Oh isn't it funny, how those sunny days of gold, soon turned grey and cold." was my favorite line. I enjoyed the poem and found it very relatable. But, I'm ashamed to say, I got confused somewhere in the middle, but that might be my lack of sleep :P

[cfix]

A shot straight to my heart.From one of cupids spy's.
and an arrow did he shoot. Life was carefree,

I enjoyed these words here, There are alot of wonderfu lines.
I like it i don't see anything you need to improve. Well expressed
and written.