The Way You Held Me

Thinking of life without you made it hard to sleep at night

And when I couldn't sleep, I'd envision your embrace

Being held by you is the best type of calm

When my whole world was spinning, you kept me grounded

Your charming words flowed into my soul with ease

You had me around your finger, and you knew it

You felt so right, so how could I ever deny you?

I told you my vulnerabilities hoping you'd protect them

I gave you my love with no expectations

But in the end, you're still a mystery to me

I want to understand why you snap the way you do

Why do you have your walls raised up so high?

Why are your cannons always ready to fire?

It's ashame we can't be civil in our disagreements

Why is every fight we have a big one?

Why is there no such thing as an argument without blowing it out of proportion?

I wanted to build my whole world with you

I wanted to shape my life to fit yours

Is it more important for you to be right every time than to keep me?

The way you act makes me question everything

Like do you really love me?

Do you use your charming words just to snake your way into my heart?

Or do you really mean them?

I am still so completely in love with you

It was easy for you to make me stay because you know I'm lonely

And that's exactly why I had to leave

My heart feels like it will never be the same

A thousand stitches wouldn't be enough to heal the wound

I could've stayed and endured the way you push me 

The way you rip me apart with your words

The way you dig so deep to find your attack

I know you need to be taught a lesson, and that lesson is me leaving

And f**k you for making me give you that lesson

F**k you for not getting your s**t together for me

I'm in so much pain because I'm so in love with you and I had to leave

Letting you go felt like deciding to live without air and I haven't been able to breathe since

I want to forgive and forget like I always do, but I need to end the cycle

And I'll forever remember the way you held me

Author's Note

Wasn't really trying that hard with this one, so don't dig too deep into the wording or anything.