Letter to social science -4

dearest social science,

It has been months,how have you been?I have been 'fine'.I thought that with time maybe,just maybe,I will heal the broken heart of mine,maybe i will fix the soul of mine that has shattered.But you cannot crumble a paper and expect if to be wrinkle-free,you cannot rain all night and expect the roads to not be slippery.

It is going to be a year since we both spent time with each other in a way that was academically helpful to me.I cannot help but remember the traumatic memories from the 9th of January,2024.6pm the clock tickling,my mother on her phone talking to a man that decided my future,I on my bed with tears in my eyes that refused to roll down my cheek.I refused to show any emotion because I did not want to be vulnerable anymore.My vulnerability has brought me no good in the past .When I retrospect about it I feel a void in my heart that is so empty so empty that it will engulf my soul alive someday.

Today marked the end of my 11th grade,A session that I will never ever miss in my entire life.Fighiting with aarti's dictatorship is something I should be awarded for.But we don't talk about her,we don't talk about the evil.

Every single day as I run to my friends' class to escape the oppersion of Science, I find myself emotinally attached to you.I find myself trying to feel a part of the A section as if trying to seek validation that yes I do like you .whenever i see the Political Science textbook lying on their table randomly I only think that if It that book was mine I would hold it in the highest regard and treat it with utmost love and care.I envy them for the way the get to be with you.

Till date whenever I see your name my eyes get numb with tears coming down my face.A sudden outburst of emotions occurs and I fall apart.I fall lovesick for a love I am devoid of.

I hope this letter makes you shed a tear or two.If i could I would embrace you.If I could i would have never left you.I am starting to hate his and your absence more ssc,i am starting to hate everyone around me.I am tired of looking out of the window to see a sun that rises not in my favour,ssc.I am tired.

neverthless,love resides in my heart and it will forever.

I love you till the day i dieeee

your's lovingly

Melissa