An Occurring Thought

This uncertainty
This mask of false security
It is a devil
A demon in disguise
A fallen angel
So dark
Yet hidden by the light

But it knows not
That I know very well who they just might be
Knows not that i do no longer cower
Nor bend at the knees

For pain is pain
Nothing more
Nothing less
And with one less victory
I lay it to rest

As I have grown stronger
Overcoming each way
This nightmare puts me at ease
As it slowly calls my name

Coils around me
Begetting
Tempting
Provoking
Slithering from all directions
Slicing through my veins
My smile stripped from my complexion
My body in torment inside, when outside it rains

But fear not for I no longer dismay
For this forsaken serpent
I no longer do pay
As I sit and do bear it
Draw my mind away
No it will not take me
Not today
Not today

So tell me its in my head
Ive only heard that always
Tell me I've lost it
But I've never had it to begin with it
This spirit
This shade
That consumes me
Its the same wretched fire I find
That fuels me

Perhaps I am a martyr
So be it so
I was always one for leaving
With a story before I go
So listen ever so closely
Yes, do near your ear
This pain inside
I tell you its real

But one last secret
Before I do go
One last word
One thing you hadn't known

That upon this journey
Through shackles and bindings
I did find a road
Found someone to find me

And this green fire
Well his veins were made of music
His very blood
And breath
A religion that soothed him
And whence I did
Come to lay eyes upon his soul
I was swallowed by the heavens
His heart singing every note
And in those eyes
Yes those dynamic green eyes
I saw more than I should
For it was love in disguise

And this dark potion
So fondly written of
So mistakenly wasted
This new emotion
Was something I had never tasted

For so I begged
Did draw him close
Felt the race of his heart
Told him words no one would know

Let him inside me
All things dark
All things bright
Revealed to him the story within
Endless words every night

And now I know no pain whenever he is at my side
I find I can breathe again
That i do always feel right
So that glow in my face
That spark in my eyes
I owe it to him
For saving my life

So love him I do
As I always have
And
Always will
Love him from ever to forever
If time would never kill

April 12, 2013