I'm Not Sure

Written 12/19/21

Awake in the night like a machine,

A single spark that never sleeps,

A magic song that never peaked,

And I didn't know you were listening.

I'm not sure what it means,

I'm not sure what to say,

I'm not sure who I am,

I'm not sure where it ends.

Feeling like a broken record.

Feeling like I'm on replay.

There is something wrong with me.

I am just a puppet on a string.

It doesn't really matter where it all began.

I see the world in different ways.

And I can see the colors change,

And I can feel the pain when the sun starts to shine again.

But I will wait until I go to sleep,

To find my own place at least,

To find another place to breathe,

Another place I've never been before.

I'm not sure where I'm going,

I'm not sure you'll be there,

I'm not sure if I even care,

I'm not sure, 

about anything, anymore.