of meteor showers and numb hearts

i'm still the one who loves you more / because you don't.

in moments like this, i hate to admit you've won -
no matter how much it hurts to say it,
i'm supposed to be the one who loves you more.
and it seems i'm still the one to.

my heart yearns for you as my eyes tear up
for i hate to see you go.
but again we part, so abruptly; expectantly
i wish you would just notice my heartbeat.

my daydreams crush again as you approach me,
now, i need to make the most of our time.
i am aware i am unneeded. childish. selfish.
just please let me indulge myself for once.

i wallow in your gentle touches
your laughter, face, and voice;
i drift asleep thinking of you,
all bitter, i see a shooting star

and so i whisper.
"please, o meteor shower,
let me be with the one i love."
it disregards me.

in the dark i am left alone
while you go and leave me with the rest
i should catch up with you, i know,
yet i am at a loss.

in moments like this, i hate to admit you've won -
no matter how much it hurts to say it,
i'm still the one who loves you more.
because you don't.