a reminder

a reminder for myself

i see slim legs and nice hair and all i can think is

it's her 

it's her

it's her

i want to take the insecure side of me and say

stop.

it's okay.

he loves you

don't think about the possibility of her because you haven't met her

don't conjure phantoms out of the air because it'll do you no good

he loves you

remember that

you are not light skin, nor light hair

he does not cling to remnants of her and neither should you

you are neither tall nor skinny, in an honors program, nor are you anything like her

he loves you 

remember that

just because you lost your headphones and you can't drown out the world by overloading your ears to occupy your eyes

doesn't mean you should start looking for her looking for him 

stop 

stop

stop

it doesn't work that way

he loves you

remember that

even though you live on the same floor he will walk you down the hallway to your door and kiss you goodnight

he will think you're beautiful even when you look your worst, even when you're in sweatpants, glasses, and have wet hair because you just came out of the shower

even when you're upset and crying

he will hold you until the tears dry up

he will treat you gently

he will make you laugh because he wants to and he loves you

remember that.