once again

Chapter one

"How long has it been, dear?" Same question, same closed mouth smile, same eager grey eyes. "Four years." the same answer. She digests the information, and my eyes drift the to the  spare red leather armchair. The chair mum used to sit cross legged in, hands folder over her left knee. The familiar red chair, that Is a stranger to my mind now. I used to only come to these weekly therapy sessions for one reason. The absence of jordan. The recent death of my mother now makes It two. "Four years for jordan,  four months for Cindy. Okay. Which bothers you the most?" I scrunch my face up In pain. "Don't ever ask me that." She flinched at my sudden snap, and picks up something from her feet. "This Is Dr Ellisons new book on depression.  It Says here In chapter five,  that all the good things In sunshine make you happier.  Getting enough sun dear? " I snort. "Debbie we live In Seattle. What is sun?" She recroses her dry wrinkled legs. then takes a while to answer. "Ever considered moving to a wamer place?" She qiestions, head tilted to the side as if she was trying to predict my reaction. I stutter. "N-No!  This Is the only tie I have left to jordan! And gypsy to mom. Why the hell would I consider moving?"

 "Because it's time to move on," she almost whispers, reaching to take my hand. I Shakily stand up, pushing back my chair with a screech. "Unfortunately thats not your decision to make, " I say though my teeth. I March to the door, and swing It shUT behind me.