Surrender Letter

I wrote this when I was just frustrated with my dad and college expenses and just everything. I was overwhelmed.

I will cease to think

or feel

or form any kind of opinion

that would separate me from the rest of

everyone.

 

To blend into the concrete,

to shove my bones back into the wall

I tried so desperately to pry out of,

I will give up.

 

I will surrender all my

dreams and hopes

so that they can show me what is

really and truly possible

and important.

 

I don't have a good reason for any of this,

I don't feel any would be true.

All I know is that i'm tired

of feeling unprioritized.

Immature.

Childish.

 

I don't know anything to really cry about,

I don't have anything to get my hopes down.

I don't even have anything to get my hopes up.

I don't have anything.

 

So i don't have anything to keep standing out for.

 

I am invisible.

How can someone invisible do anything but

blend in?

Reviews

[Swaroop Manikandan]

ah! so piercing... well written...

[Wynter Page]

Thank you very much!