Thanksgiving

Today I sang and laughed with glee

But it was not the Christmas cheer

That made me so relieved you see

It was my own, and secret, fear

Amid the singing crowds I slipped

In to a private, sacred space

Alone - and trembling I quickly stripped

And searched to seek my own disgrace.

But what I found was that red bliss

That for weeks I had been searching for 

The evidence I'd sorely missed

In absence that branded me, a w***e.

I have not prayed to God for much

But for this gift I thank you desperately

It wasn't the worth the fleeting touch

I could not have faced his pregnancy.

Reviews

[A hare off]

Breathing a sigh of relief and it wasn't because sugarplums were finally dancing in your head. I like the feel of this and how you disguised an ending that I didn't expect. Once I read it the worry I felt in your words became a bolder font in my mind. Great writing Alias.

[jesserose99]

This is so good...its different..you have your own style and it reads here. How many times have women gone through this moment, and not had the courage to share that elation that you feel when you are in the clear. This is honest. I love it.

[Jacob Clifford]

I love this. It strikes a chord with events relevant in my life right now. I love the narrative.

[Robert Parlange]

Uhhhh.... Hey, how about all that global warming stuff? It's really tough on those polar bears, ain't it?

[Alias]

I don't follow..?

[Robert Parlange]

I'm a guy, honey. We tend to avoid the personal stuff. Like ninjas, we use distraction.

[Alias]

Haha - then you don't have to read it, sweetie?

[Robert Parlange]

Sorry for the confusion. I suffer from multiple college degrees. I'm still functional, though.

[McBear]

Hmm.. Well, I don't know how to explain this xD

It was very interesting and the meaning was un-evident. The title threw me off a little, aha. Well done!
I loved how it had multiple meanings though..

[Alias]

Multiple meanings? I only had one in mind...

[McBear]

Well in my eyes I see multiple keywords that made me think of multiple things, is what I mean, sorry.

[Alias]

No don't be sorry I love to hear your interpretations! - go on...

[McBear]

Awh yay! hehe..

In these lines...


Amid the singing crowds I slipped

In to a private, sacred space

Alone - and trembling I quickly stripped

And searched to seek my own disgrace.




But what I found was bloody bliss

That for weeks I had been searching for

The evidence I'd sorely missed

In absence that branded me, a w***e.

...................

I see that it seems like you feel alone and are having a hard time finding out evidence if you are the mother or soemthing like that

[Alias]

pretty much :) i don't know if i was being to cryptic. But the point about this kind of thing is that you're forced to keep it secret, so I guess I tried to emulate that secrecy in my poem, but then included 'pregnancy' at the end, because personally I'm quite direct and I find it hard to keep a secret

[Southern_Writes]

I had already read this :P. Just couldn't find the words to review.
It is heart wrenching. Sad, even though I can feel the heartbreaking happiness. A mix of pain and relief.

[Alias]

Thanks, it's not my best written but the narrative is still important. :)