Drowning

A Poem by ...

I cant help it....its the only thing that helps for some time at leas...

Another day of life by the drop.
I pray to lord, help me stop.

I awake in pain, feeling shame.
Knowing soon again I'll play the game.

For the brief second with my self.
Before I walk over to that shelf.

I stop and think of all the things I do.
And the people I hurt while drinking booze.

I grip the bottle o so tight.
I won't let go until the night.

All these thoughts rush through my head.
Loves and pride and things I once said.

I know it's from the former me.
The one that can no longer be.

It hits me hard, I cannot cope.
So drink until I start to choke..

Day to day I live like this.
High to high and kiss to kiss.

I hope one day, the drunk will let me out.
And never again will I drink and shout.

Until that time I'll drown and hate.
I just hope that's not my final fate.