What LUCID NIGHTMARE Actually Looks Like?

Tonight I decided to sleep on the couch.

There's no other reason why, I just want to sleep anywhere I'd like because I am alone in the house and I can do anything I want to.

1am. I decided to close my eyes and force myself to sleep. I'm not the type of person who likes staying up late, I stay up late because I struggle falling asleep

I'm having a normal dream, I don't remember what exactly the dream is about but for some reason I suddenly woke up.

My eyes are half open, even though I tried to open them up wide, they just can't

I can clearly see the whole living room. Lights are off. 

But there's a small light source from the hallway to the bathroom

I looked around without my head moving. I tried to get up but it seems like I am stuck on the couch

The couch sits near the wall, and on the wall there's painting decors of birds and flowers while on the left side of me was the pillow I put on the top of the couch, leaning to the wall.

It's clear to see enough even though my eyes feels like half opened. 

But I saw the pillow turned into something.

I saw it grow arms and hands and eyes and mouth. It was looking at me

Then grabbed my arm

As someone who had often experiences nightmares, and sleep paralysis, I did not feel fear at all.

 I know already that this is just my brain tricking me and playing with me making me think that I am really awake.

I yelled at the pillow and grabbed it's hand like I am fighting back

I'm so angry and annoyed, because of the feeling of being trapped like this and not knowing how to escape from this kind of nightmare

I screamed my lungs out, "LET ME OUT RIGHT NOW!"

saying those words made me feel out of breath already

I hear voices laughing now.

I feel like there's a lot of people around me that I cannot see but I know they are watching me

I tried to sleep again and think of other things. Maybe when I wake up again, I am not stuck inside this hell of a dream anymore

I hear the voices right next to my ear, whispering something then laughs.

There were hands trying to touch me, but I was eager to divert my mind by thinking of other things.

I know this is all in my mind and I need to be able to control them in some way.

It stopped. Then again. I had a new set of normal dream.

I woke up again. I wanted to pick up my phone to see what time it is.

I CANNOT MOVE.I looked at the pillow that was leaning to the wall to see if it starts to turn into something like a demon again

And it did. I can see its eyes looking at me

But beside the pillow I saw something that wasn't there before.

I saw a body of a child, a very small child, with very pale skin and dark hair

But why is it looking like that?

It was hugging its legs to the point where the face is so close to it which is why I can't see if it has a face.I was screaming again out of frustration that I am not really awake.

Begging for God to wake me up Then again, I hear the voices laughing around me

I am on the verge of crying, this is terrifying to me that I feel like I am in a purgatory trapped inside and being played with demons to lose my mind

I got up from the couch, which is weird, because usually whenever this kind of dream happens to me I can NEVER get up or move. 

That is the sign that I am not really awake and everything around me is not real.

I got up.

Confused and scared of what happened in my dream, I went to my parent's room which is in a separate house just beside of the house where I am staying.

I saw mom laying down wearing a white nightdress with her legs crossed.

"Mom, can I sleep here? I had a nightmare again"

I felt relief and comfort when she let me sleep on her bed. 

I lay down, but I feel something is not right. I just realized I never saw her face when I entered the room.

All I saw was her white nightdress and her very pale legs

The feeling of relief suddenly changed to a weird, cold and creepy feeling. I feel like I am laying next to a dead body.

Then I woke up.

And I'm on the couch again.

Frustrated, I screamed and hit the pillows next to me

All I did was cry, yell and beg that I wake up

Then I felt hands touching me on my shoulders and when I looked at it 

I saw the hands was abnormally large for a human hand.

It also looked like a hand of a dead person because of the pale and dry texture of its skin

Trying to calm me down, these creepy hands were all over me and all I felt was irritation rather than fear.

There are voices whispering right into my ear but I couldn't understand the words it says.

LEAVE ME ALONE. Is all I can say.

The fighting and screaming felt like an hour and I am starting to get exhausted.

I woke up again, this time I have no idea if this is another trick in a dream or if its real

I feel a little lighter 

I got up and picked up my phone. I can pick up my phone now. I felt a relief

The pillow that is leaning to the wall didn't have eyes and  arms anymore

I am awake now, finally

I looked at the time and it was only 2:44 am.

Author's Note

Hi! This is Ariane:) I apologize for some words that I used and the reason why is english is not my first language but I will try to write better in the future so for now i will be using basic words to share this story