undecided

undecided I am for sure

full of angst and madness and love

I sit alone night after night and I dream of a better life

undecided I am right now

the world runs past as I sit here still

the urge to break out and burst through a hundred walls

ive lost everything

ive gained it all back

I ran away once more to sit in this dark and damp place

I am truly undecided

I reach out for another to save me from the angry man within

he punishes my inner child

he locks her away

he hates her weakness

he hates she is she

don't you question me he says

her coup has been submerged

he can not let go

to the victor goes the spoils young man

to the victor

Author's Note

please ignore grammar, please tell me what you think