sad little angel

Life is overwhelming when you lose the only one you feel like you can tell anything. The past two months or so have been a roller coaster. I only hope this could end.

I carry so much pain inside
I am not fun to be around anymore
Maybe, I have never been

But that is not the sad part
The sad part is me
The sad part is that

No one ever really understood
Or maybe, no one ever cared enough to

You are the scar that haunts me
You are the scar that won't heal

For the rest of my days
We are probably not meant to be
But the heart wants what it wants

Everyone says it is going to be okay
But I know it won't
I know the truth
I know that I can't really ever forget you

I hate that I don't know anything about you
I probably won't for a really long time

I can only hope to be remembered
To be thought of

I love you for life exists where you are

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[angel]

I like this very much.
That last line grabs me:
"I love you for life exists where you are"...
Very evocative. A fine line indeed.
"For the rest of my days
We are probably not meant to be
But the heart wants what it wants."

Yes, it does, and sometimes what it wants simply can't be had.
Trust me, sweetie, I know.
I am 65, and have yearned for a certain person for over 40 years! He died long ago, but still...that damn heart...good writing, honey. You made me FEEL SOMETHING!