I dare, standing in God fear while wondering at Majesty, a sense with a long past, long passed. In the shadow of its departure lies, now, a horrible stillness, just perceived—not wanted but known.: known ever affecting, seeping, pulling down.
This box is here so that I may supposedly tell you who I am. In reality, the answer to this question requires the object of the question, “me”, to be divided. First, there is the Present “me”--who I think I am. Then, there is Ideal Me-- who I wish to be. This one includes my dreams and all my desires. There is a problem here; the Ideal is driven by an imperfect mind, thusly it is doomed to fail.
So, where does that leave me? Who am I? The answer lies in the “me” that has been divinely designed. I was intently and purposefully crafted by God. He knows who I am now and who I’m going to be and what I’m going to do.
All of my ways, as perceived by people, fall short of Gods measurements. It is by His grace and mercy that I can continue my attempts at living this life of light in this world that is so dark. I shall fail times beyond number, but He shall pull me up just as many times—grace.
Those who know me, I believe, know that I am not a fool. Still, some will wonder why I would put forth something that seems so foolish. To those, I say this: Do you not think if I found no validity in God, nothing sensual, or beyond chance, I would keep to a life that is perceived, by most standards, restrictive, difficult, and pointless? I think not. I like fun, money and the idea of power too! However, there is more.
The choice to deny God is, just that, a choice. There is nothing anyone can say that makes God valid to you. All I can suggest is this: If you have problems with the idea of God or his ways, talk to Him about it, consulting an appropriate person when and if necessary.
It is not wise to consider him through humans only. All humans fail, no matter the standard. Most grievously this includes the Christians: through our shortcomings we not only harm neighbors, we misrepresent God. For my hand in this marring, I am sorry, and when I perceive my transgressions from today, tomorrow I shall again be grieved-- as I should be. So if and when you weigh Christendom, weigh us Christians as you like, but do not neglect God and Christ. They must, for balance, enter into your balance. Weigh wisely.
Appeal to Him about His existence. Even if God did not exist the worse that could happen would be you talking to your self. But what if He did answer?
“If you seek me with all your heart you will find me.”
The choice is yours for your entire lifetime—seek or don’t seek. After all, God is a loving father, not a dictator.
If you have any other questions, ask.