This Is Now

it's actually a song, but i can't play the guitar, so there's no music for it. =/

 At night, I used to lie in bed

With thoughts of you running through my head.

Happy thoughts full of open smiles.

I'd stay in la-la land for a while.

Until sleep would come and take me.

 

Last night was one of those nights.

Full of visions with only you in my sights.

But these visions were all wrong.

The music in the background was a sad song.

Thinking of you didn't make me happy.

 

[Chorus]

You know I really miss you, boy.

But I don't want to be treated like some kind of toy.

I know I've been mean, here's the reason why:

If I don't act like I hate you, I'll start to cry.

I thought my dreams were coming true,

All because I met you.

I thought we'd be together, forever, somehow.

You said you'll always be my friend,

But I never thought this could end.

But that was then, this is now.

 

When we hugged goodbye that one last time,

I was thinking of words I could use to rhyme.

I was writing a poem for you,

I thought you felt the same way, too.

I guess it was a waste of my time.

 

[Chorus]

 

I threw your necklace, made a dent in the wall.

Crumpled up your notes into a ball.

Threw it all away, I don't need it anymore.

I want to be happy, I really try,

But every time i see you, I want to cry.

It's so much easier to just walk out the door.

 

You can thank me for taking the time to write you a song.

Don't apologize, I know you did nothing wrong.

I just had to say how I feel,

I thought that what we had was real.

I didn't know the pain would last this long.

 

[Chorus]

Author's Note

this song is about a breakup, if you didn't catch my drift. it's kinda confusing because it has so many emotions in it, because that's how i felt when i wrote it. i didn't know if i was angry or upset or anything.

Reviews

[alyssa]

i love it!! i could almost feel how you were feeling great jod... keep writing!!

[Alex Walters]

First you surprised me when I found out you like to write,

And now you surprise me even more when I realize that you write AMAZINGLY too :]

[Mysty Rayn]

I think we all feel this way when we breakup. We have alot of emotions and don't know what we are feeling. Good job of expressing all of that.