Bittersweet Muse

A piece about the trials and tribulations we go through that allow our Muses to help us create.

How is it that you,
My Lovely Bit of Song
The breath in my life, My Muse,
Always seem to abuse,
My heart, my soul.
With these feelings that don't belong?

Why does it always seem like you
Bring out the worst, the thirst
For the things I can't have?
The thing's not mine
Wishing for another place and time,
An answer to the infinite rhyme.

You say that it's right, but I know that it's wrong.
How can I win when I play the game this way?
The house always beats my best attempt
Leaving me nothing but self contempt
Lost and alone with Only Shadows...

Where is the light when I'm trapped in my Dark?
Where is the hope for this heart forlorn?
Why can't I finish this play I wrote when I was young?
Do you even care, you've left me torn to shreds.

Is it just me? Or is it you?
Can I escape myself and let it go?
These feelings I feel,
They leave me aching with a need unmet, misunderstood.
In a different world, oh but if I could.

So maybe I'll know, or not someday.
My Obsession is here to stay.
It's not so bad, it could be worse.
It's just that I wish it would leave me now.

Now, my Lovely Bit of Song,
Did you know it would be this way,
When you sent those dreams my way?
Did you have a plan or just an evil grin?

So tell me my Darkness,
Are we in this together or both alone?
Can the Demons Two master themselves?
Can we live without that,
Crimson Concert Fantasy?

I'll have to make my peace someday.
Now's as good as any.
But tell me,
Bittersweet Muse,
If you could have it any other way,
Would you?

Author's Note

The Bittersweet Muse is sometimes the most demanding, wanting things from us we can't give.

Do you have a Bittersweet Muse all your own?

Reviews

[quinfinn]

a muse....a gentle partner, a tormenting lover, a deliberate stranger and song in your head or a feeling in your gut...even a real person at times. and yet...she is fickle, fleeting and fancy free. this is probably some of the most intense and intelligent verse i have seen , which deals with this antagonist of creativity...you have penned a true treasure herein.

[Caradoc]

Thank you for the more than kind review. All I can say in response is, I try.

[quinfinn]

well done!

[ErosNthanatos]

Unfinished Sonata is your muse. Desire fires the embers of wanting.

[Mia]

“my Lovely Bit of Song” I love that. My muse is not so much a who but a what…sometimes a song, sometimes a movie, sometimes a person poem or story. The one thing I struggle with is the fact that I’m in love and can never seem to write about it…it never really does it justice or people never get it…sigh…oh well!
If YOU could have any other way, would YOU?!

[RachelReaper]

yes, I do, and it annoys the living hell out of me. God, I hate him, but I love him, too, but that of course means I can't have him, either. Oh, well, nice write, though, describes my emotions right now so I could put it in perspective to my own life very easily.

[Caradoc]

Thanks for reading and reviewing. I always enjoy it when a reader answers the questions I ask in my AN. I hope someday you find Muse that doesn't give so much heartache.

Be well.

-Caradoc

[RachelReaper]

so do I.

[Kiari Sabon]

a darkness wel known.. again and again it comes on in to bring in its cold nothingness and leave us alnoe again. may a flame find its way through the ever darkness to you

[Caradoc]

Thank you for your kind words. I doubt I would recognize such a flame even if it did find its way to me.

[Kiari Sabon]

it is no problem and hopefully it will make itself known

[Dewella~Vintella]

I loved those last lines, it pulled everything together in oddly a bittersweet end. Fantastic in its way, but you hate that there is nothing left to read, that the piece came to an end.

^^ I am so happy, reading this was a wonderful way to start my day away from work.
So, thanks Cara. :p

[Caradoc]

Well you're welcome. I'm glad I could brighten someone's day.