A Scary Situation

Confusion in my heart

Confusion in my head

So much confusion

Mixed with so much dread.

Does someone want me dead?

Is this truly love?

I'm praying for answers,

no reply from above,

no reply from below.

And now I feel so low.

And now I feel so sad.

And now I'm steaming mad

but then hear comes the fear.

Get me away from here!

They ask me why I stay,

telling me to run away

and yes, I love this dude

through his verbal abuse.

And yes I ate him more

but leaving out the door

it's all just so hard.

Where do I even start?

Looking at the stars,

where do I even begin?

In this love I cannot win.

In this love I cannot believe.

I really want to leave.

I really want to stay.

Why do I feel this way?

One day it will come.

I will have to run

but it might not even matter

if he ends my last chapter.

There is nothing more scary

than a man who always carries

his hatred out on you 

and not knowing what to do.

Leave, leave, leave.

In yourself believe.

Stay and don't go.

He said he loves you so.

Till death do us part,

but I can't play that part.

I am just too smart.

I know my value, worth.

He's treating me like dirt.

That isn't who I am.

I am very intelligent.

His insults are irrelevant.

I can love myself.

I can accept the help. 

Leave, leave, leave.

I'll do what I believe.

Leave, leave, leave

and finally become free

from hurt and abuse.

Put life to better use.