Look in my head.

When you look in my head

You’ll wonder why I’m not dead

In every aspect of my life, internal strife will arise

My quiet sea of emotional turns into crashing oceans

The flood gates can’t with stand

There is no near land

My stubborn boat floats the ocean,

As the hurricane continues forming

A single tear is made my poison

Hit the ore upon the surface

Just keep going

Don’t look back

But my stomach knots so hard it must be bleeding

To feel these f*****g feelings

Makes me evermore certain

To try and do what is worth it

Or keep pushing to the grave I’m digging

Make your mind up

Your ship is sinking

You’re lost in your head

Soon better off dead

 

 

No circumstances are ever perfect

Bite the bullet it’s not worth it.

Break the lease

Take the car

Change your number and move far

Find a new job

Find a new home

Start again

Start alone

 

 

Alone is how I feel

Then someone to share the feels

It still feels like a knife and that’s alright.

I got in over my head

But I’ll give up this time.

I’m still here, but I’ll wait in line.

But in a year if nothing fades.

I’m going to move away.

Long distance may help just numb myself.