That Elusive Heartbeat

The world is always so noisy, never standing still, never shutting up. Oh, how I miss silence; can you just shut the f**k up! Just. Be. Quiet! Please! I'm trying to hear that which really matters...

Sounds, what are these sounds? Screaming, singing, soft honking? A rooster, a robin, and... a pheasant? End to silence.
Oh, I get it. Sun shines, leaving only salt in my shutters. Nature Bustles, gaping mouths exhale, water rinses metal.
Morning. Right. I sigh. Another day, huh? Rustling cloth, scraping brush, tearing scalp, jumping flavor. Alright. Let's go.Everyone is here. Smiling, like usual. Endless chatter. Uproarious laughter. Cups clang against metal. These people, huh...
Once, I thought, maybe, just maybe, one of them? No. Him? Growling for praise. Her? Screeching for recognition. No.
None soothing. None pleasant. Violent thumping, raging anger, desperate plea. No. Not them. Sighing at the clock. 

Ending my last cup of coco. Hey, sweetheart, wanna come with us for some karaoke? Flirtatious. Lustful. Tempting. I blush.
Today, as usual. Always something, always busy. Cheering, resonating, screaming. Let's have some fun together, okaaay?
Oh God. Internal scream. No. No, no, no! Bashful yell. No thanks! Run. Deafening screech. Wait, where are you going?! 

Halting, hyperventilating, hesitating, focused gaze. Exhausted. Dehydrated. A café. Hectic. Noisy. Apprehensive. I enter.
Overwhelming atmosphere. Jovial conversation. Soft music. Much better. Yet still. Noisy. Uncomfortable. Deafening.
Leeching breath. Diligent footsteps. Good evening, sir, what would you like?  Surprised gasp. U-uh, coco, th-thanks.

Direct eye contact. Unease. Hi, cutie, rough day? Oh no. Not again. Soft laugh. Pleasant voice. Yet still. So painful...
Dread overtakes me. Uhm, well, y-yes, kinda. Polite chuckle. Caring smile. Laughing gaze. Oh, sorry to hear that!
Everything alright, sir? Startled. Shattering glass. Sudden gasp. Judging sigh. Apologize. Flee. She follows.

Ashamed. Oh, don't worry, darling, these things happen. How about I treat you to something else? Deceit. Manipulation. Danger.
Restless. Scared. S-sorry, I gotta go! Scurry. Leave. Wai- Damn, almost. Running footsteps. Hurried pace. Hide. She passes.
... Calm. Silent. Exhale. Observe. Res- Wait, is that... I jump up. Presence. Someone? Around the corner?

... Startled. Short. Afraid. Wet cheeks. Huddled hedgehog. Was she... crying? Gulp. H-Hi there...

... No response. Calm. Silent. Serene. Ah, sorry for the intrusion. No response. Fear subsiding. Deep eyes. Sad smile.
... Uh... H-hahaha, yeah, I guess this is kind of-. Movement. Lips make shapes without sound. What? I don't understand.

... Hand gestures. Wait, hang on. Hello. Sorry... Not. Speak. ... A mute? Rapid Blinking.

... Soft thumping. Comforting. Serenity. Smile. Oh, no, that's fine, really. What's your name?
... Reluctant. Bashful. Hurried glances. Rosy cheeks. Utter silence. Hesitation. Apprehension. Fear? Reassure.

... Stifled sobs. Dried tears. Soft smile. More movement. Hello. Again... My. Name... Is.

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My goodness! From where did you get this creative thoughtful captivating image?!!
Now even am also thinking the same, which things around me does really matter....
Cute Cyberbaboon, you penned something great actually.....well did you find what really matters?!....Tis a good read :)