A Psalm To Glory

A letter to God from the pen of a sinner:

How am I worth the grace You deliver?

When I gave my back to Your wounded face

and walked away to wanton disgrace

Pursuing lusts and selfish ambition

I forgot my Love and rejected contrition

I found a world of suicide dreams

in the depths of a well that ingested me

The stones at the bottom were cold and slick

and I quickly detested my life in the pit

Inhaling the ink into burning lungs

I despaired of life and considered it dung

And just when I had a mind to end it all

with a palmful of pills and a vacant call

You seized me with blessed hands

and guided me without reprimand

through the blackness that devoured my will

toward a thread of light no thicker than a pill

And as I approached, it widened like a door

a flood of light that soaked to my core

It burst aflame under my tapestry of skin

a fire eternal that won't gutter or dim

For You sought me in the darkness with an emanance  of Love

and devastated my hold so that I could reach far above

Oh gracious Lord, you have pulled me from the mud

and stood me on a rock before a cross of blood

On that cross, Your son was crucified

and on that ground, I let myself die

for the glory of Your name, that rock on which I stand

Always a fire beneath my flesh, lit by mighty hands

Forever my flesh is a fabric undone

Oh Lord above, this is my vow of Love

Author's Note

It is true that once- four or five years ago, in fact- I considered suicide on almost a daily basis; the jaws of that beast threatened oh so restlessly to consume me. But, as the story goes, God's power is far greater that any beast of blackness that Hell can throw at us. As it is written in the book of Romans: For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, will have the power to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!
My friend, if you are willing and seek God with all your heart, His love will pierce through even your deepest, most despairing darkness. Set aside the flesh- your own passions and desires- and seek to put on new, righteous garments in accordance with the will of God and find the path of eternal life. For only on this path will you find a true, steadfast, and inextinguishable hope- a hope in Jesus Christ. My prayers are with all those reading this- may you find peace and hope and a life eternal.