Big Girls Do Cry

I have just been dealing with too much this is my way of purging so to speak

It�s been a long time since I seen the true me
Lately it�s just been a shell of who I can be
Lately it�s a shell of who I could be
Reverting back to the old me

Things have changed and time has moved on
I�m sorry I haven�t let go
I�m sorry I haven�t moved ahead
I can�t even say the old me is dead
She is just slumbering waiting to rear her ugly head

Drugs
Abuse
Out of control
It�s how I used to live life
Who knew that it was just a big lie

Stagnant
Waiting
Eagerly patient for time to move on
I guess it is time for the old me to get going

Cynical
I don�t want to be that girl
The one who is alone
The one who is always against the world
It�s exhausting fighting all the time
It�s exhausting that I feel my life feels like some sort of crime

People have come and gone
I have learned to push them away
Pushed away before they got too close
Learning to just be with me, myself and I

Words have hurt me
Words have hurt them
I guess its time to grow up and accept life for what it is
Time has moved on and so should I
It�s just letting go that�s hard
It�s just taking those steps forward that scare me

Fear
Loathing
I�m not happy with who I am sometimes
I�m not happy with the person looking out at me
I�m not happy with the place I�m living
Babysteps though
Take a breath and breathe
Suffocating
Drowning

Time to say good-bye old me
Time to shed my skin
Time to spread my wings and embrace the New Year
Step by step
Breath by breath
I can pull through this just like I have always done
This time
This time I will forgive and forget
Forget about him the one who drowned me
Forget about her the one who lied to me
Forget about them
The poison in my life has been purged
A new hopeful girl has emerged

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Reviews

[SweetPeachesAlways]

good write...I like this! love the song, too

[Gaia the Nature Woman]

Very spiritual

[Marie]

Great work, sis.